Final Transits of Saturn to natal Pluto

Okay, I didn’t think I was going to come back. And honestly, yes, I do think that I’m going to eventually give up blogging exclusively about astrology (because, well, I don’t think I can. I keep ending up blogging about something else, like music). But I had to point out a recent discovery.

Final transits. A slow moving planet often makes three transits to a natal point (sometimes as many as five). I’ve read a bunch of opinions on the subject as to which transit is the most important (Donna Cunningham comes to mind – I love her books and articles, and I refer to them frequently).

Some say it’s the first transit. Some say it’s the last transit. Almost nobody says all that much about the middle transit, and in my experience, well, yeah. I haven’t come to any major conclusions during the middle transit of Pluto-square-natal-Sun or Saturn-conjunct-natal-Pluto. But in my recent completion of my Saturn-conjunct-natal-Pluto transit (this happened last week), I would say that the last transit had the biggest impact, and for good reason. I’ll explain.

My first transit happened a little less than a year ago, and with the transit I realized that I was not living up to my potential because I have a lot of limiting beliefs. I knew that I didn’t think I was smart enough, strong enough, a whole bunch of ‘not-enoughs.’ And I realized it wasn’t really because I was lacking in qualities, but because I didn’t believe in myself. So I embarked on a project to “Destroy My Limiting Beliefs.” Yes. Seriously. This is what I called it. I proceeded to sift through old journals, delve into the past, see what I could dig up.

It was a few weeks before my second transit that I started seeing a therapist to figure out what was going on (and I really am indebted to the friend who suggested this to me, though I think she was more concerned about my mental health…and to be fair, so was I). My private attempts were not getting me anywhere – I was too close to the situation to see what was going on.

3+ months later, after what I feel was a psychologically-hellish summer, I realize, with the help of my therapist, that almost all of my limiting beliefs comes down to family (and culture, to some degree). Most of them implanted between the ages of ten and seventeen. And now I function as if they are true, as if I really am not good enough. The realization hit home at the last transit of Saturn to Pluto, and honestly, I don’t remember any other time in my life I was as full of rage. Eventually the rage will calm down (and it had better, because it’s sapping a lot of my energy), but I now have to make a decision to emotionally break away from my past and roots if I ever want to reach my full capability as the intelligent, ambitious human being that I am.

It’s been rough. But I think I’m on the right path now.

And to come back to the original question – which transit is the most important? For this particular case, they all are. They’re part of a process…but I think I might always remember the last transit as the one that changed my life for good.

Progressed Lunar Returns…along with everything else.

So. Yeah, I think I’ve come to the point where I’ve realized that, nope, becoming a professional astrologer is not going to be my thing. 🙂 It’s a good discovery to make. I’ll probably still keep this blog around, just to make sense of progressions, transits, and whatever in my life – and if anyone else is reading, here’s some stuff that may help the interpretation process. I always find it helpful to know what’s going on in other people’s lives to understand astrological phenomena.

I still love learning about this stuff. Astrology, if anything, is an amazing tool for self-development, whether you’re trying to analyze yourself from your natal chart, figure out where you’re going in life (secondary progressions and solar arc directions), or you want to be prepared for the near future (transits, lunations, and planetary returns). And if you want to figure out how different people work together, there’s synastry. Am I missing anything? Probably. 🙂 That’s cool though – so much to explore!

 

Progressed Lunar Returns…that’s what I was getting at. So I’m not getting into what secondary progressions are (there are many awesome sites and books that describe this sort of thing –  and in fact, here is an awesome article on the subject of Progressed Lunar Returns and Saturn Returns:), but let it be enough to say that the Progressed Lunar Return happens for everyone at around 28, 56 and if one is particularly lucky, maybe, around 84. It could be sooner or later, depending on how fast the Moon is moving in the days after one’s birth. The Saturn Return follows the Progressed Lunar Return, usually a year or two afterward when one is younger, a few years apart as people grow older.

I’m about to have my Progressed Lunar Return, along with everyone else around my age (27). It’s a pretty important time, regardless of other astrological stuff going on – though if there are major things happening, a complete overhaul of one’s inner life can be expected. And that’s what I’m seeing in mine. The thing I want to get at is that, at 27, I think what happens is that you start figuring out who you are. By the time the Saturn Return rolls around, in a year or two, you start figuring out how to work with your outer circumstances. That…is what I’m getting from all the reading on the subject, at least about the Saturn Return.

In the past few months, I’ve been hit with a Pluto transit to my Sun (the second is in a week or so, and the last in December), a Uranus transit also to my Sun (two more of those coming up), some pretty heavy eclipses and lunations, and important progressions. And now this, the Progressed Lunar Return. I feel like I’m encountering the Shadow side of my personality (a very Plutonian thing to happen) and learning to accept it as it is. And I also now have a therapist to help me with this – yeah, I read somewhere that therapy is a good idea during a Pluto transit. Best. Decision. Ever. My therapist even has some knowledge of astrology – he knows what I mean when I talk about houses!

I don’t think I’ve ever gone through anything like this. A time when I am actively trying to find out who I am…and being cool with whatever I find out. And sure, there’s plenty of crap to work through, but can you imagine the sense of relief when you realize that you are who you are, and that you don’t need to fight it? It’s AMAZING.

I think this is the Progressed Lunar Return at work. And when my Saturn Return rolls around, two and a half years from now, I want to see where I am, with this newly accepted self. I know it won’t be easy, but it’ll be worth it.